I was planning to keep things under wraps.. but this being my blog and i think that those who read it probably are my friends.. and those people whom i feel should know it from me, i think i have already told them (except you, bertie wertie).. i don't think theres a need to hide. i dont intend to announce it on facebook at the moment due to several issues.. so this being "the definition of shirley" and now that nei has become an even bigger part of this definiton, i am going ahead with this blog post anyway.
It has been 2 weeks and going since we got together. All i can say is that i am extremely extremely thankful for him being in my life. for everything since 4 years ago when i got to know him, then we became good friends, then best friends and now.. lovers. honestly, last year this time, i would have never, in my wildest imagination, thought that any of these would have come true. i would never have imagined me.. shirley lim.. would have even a 2 weeks old relationship with nei. even though the feeling has more or less settled and things have gone onto the right track now, everyday seems too surreal. waking up to his smses, being wished good night before i head to bed, having a strong shoulder to lie on when im tired, a strong pair of hands to give me a good back rub when im aching.. and all these coming from my best friend of whom i have had a deep crush for 2 years and more. i would never have thought that all these would come true.
i used to be very sceptical about people who wished their boyfriends/girlfriends "happy 1 week anniversary!" .. i thought they were lame. now, im one of them. haha! to me, i never even thought we would have one day as lovers and now, i'm given a functional, 2 weeks relationship which is growing everyday.. i cannot ask for more.
in the past, from my past guys, i would need their smses or phonecalls to reassure me that they weren't out there flirting around. i needed that assurance that they love me through physical means. but for nei, i don't really need. of course, i'd look forward to his phonecalls/ smses/ fb messages .. but they no longer fulfill the assurance role. because i know that, if he doesnt contact me for a day.. it isn't because he's out there busy flirting with other girls or can't be bothered with me.. but he really just can't. well, at least.. this is the case for now.
it may all seem so rosy at this present moment.. how i wished good times like this could go on and on for a looong time.. but my closest friends would know that this good times will only last us for a while because.. well.. he would be going overseas to study.. and i think he would work there. so this is only the beginning of a very very very long journey. and even without him going overseas, there might already be some obstacles present that we have to overcome..
but nonetheless.. im not going to waste the present moment busy planning for the future. because from what i've learnt, what the future holds, i don't know. and instead of treasuring whats going on now.. it would definitely be stupid of me to plan all my nonsensical, unrealistic activites for the future, just like what i always did in the past. and they all boil down to nothing but disappointment. so for this one, i am not repeating my mistakes. i'm going to take a step at a time and be thankful for every single passing day.. making sure that i have lived to the fullest with him [of course, not at the expense of other things in my life] so that i wouldnt have any regrets in future, if things don't turn out the way we want it to be.
so, nei.. happy 2 weeks, my dear! (: your love is truly one of the best things that has ever happened to me and i couldn't ask for more...
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