feeling foolish..

i feel foolish.. Now that i come to think of it. While im here, still hovering about the memories he gave me and still not being able to forget him and checking his fb everyday.. He might already have found someone new and moved on. Or probably forgotten who i am. And im still holding on to the promise he made me re: the xmas card. So foolish eh. Really foolish. Im supposed to be okay when im back from shanghai. im not. I just force myself to think i am. Im just not. Ohhhhhh.. Ben chew, go away! Get out of my head.. Gahhh. Its like, everyday i wake up and hoping he'll txt me. And when he doesn't.. I get disappointed and i die a little inside everyday. Im okay, rlly. Because being disappointed becomes a habit and it really isn't that bad after a long while. I probably wont be able to forget him in a while because i really really liked him this time. But i'll lead my life like i have ba. Maybe being disappointed shall just become a new routine, like brushing a new set of teeth. Yup. Just hope that by the end of this year, i become stronger.