Cupid, you fucking incompetent, untrustworthy fucker.

Yet another heartbreak for this week. and the heart belongs to my cousin. so poor thing, that girl. 4 years of best-frienship and well, you can consider them an item. but anyways, yeah, yes, another wounded in the battlefield of love. honestly, even the people i have pinned my hopes on to tell me that love DOES exists have diminished. i can't really see the light anymore. gahhh. it has been blown out. honestly. my take on love has been very negative. when i see couples holding hands, i would think, "wah! wonder how long it'll take for her to get over this piece of memory when they break up?" lol! really. and when i see happy pictures of couples, i don't believe it in entirety! not anymore. oh well. just.. ohmygosh. im really too scared to even go into a relationship. the aftermath of a broken heart is not to be toyed with and definitely not meant for the broken hearted.

well, went to mug with reggie veggie today. v great day!! fucking love mugging with her and today .. i'd say.. is the most productive mugging session with her sia! hahahahaha. LOVE YOU ENRIQUE!! :D

hmm. anyway, i came online to settle some stuff. well... im gonna prove that i love myself, by posting pictures of myself!!! LOL! go away if you don't wanna see them. these were taken when i successfully did double eyelid without the glue looking obvious! plus had no makeup though had LARGE ZIT on cheek. lol!! i WISHED i could look as good in real life as in pictures eh! haiyo! oh well!





and also, tried to tie elegant bun.

SIGHHHH AT MY BALD SPOTS! OMGGGG.

FEMININE TO THE MAX RIGHT? HIAK!!

and one last random post,


the donkey actually had no mouth and i drew it on! look, it looks happier!

HURRAH SINGLETONDOM! i have got far too many things to do now to have a bf! hmmm. really. just thinking of how someone can be the closest person to you one moment and the person to destroy your life the next IS FUCKING SCARY. i mean, i don't mind entering into a relationship, but how do you enter into a relationship where you don't associate it to anything? i don't want to associate ANYTHING in the world to one guy who will break my heart? like, if you broke up and saw a bench, you'll remember sitting on a bench kissing with him. if you saw your textbook, you remember how he used to encourage you to study and you are reminded of his absence? or, like when i went back to clarke quay after he left me, i just kept being reminded how he kissed me? when people asked me to chew/ or i see the name "ben", i get worked up? so small things. SO SMALL THINGS. can make one cry. if i can enter a relationship without having to link anything to that relationship, then i will enter it. omg, is this.. COMMITMENT PHOBIA?

aiyah, whatever la. not like anything will happen also. woooo! SINGLETONS! WE ARE FREE!