Sheamson, my secondary school classmate for 4 years.. he lost SO MUCH WEIGHT! omfg. its really unbelievable. unimaginable i swear. its actually pretty inspirational. i, on the other hand, have been pigging out. eating chocs, ice cream. and my face is definitely rounder. i gained all the weight back i lost from shanghai. i feel so fucking round la. am going to exercise more and stuff. omg. really v inspired.
going clubbing tonight. i don't know but i hope i enjoy myself ba. cus suddenly, i just feel like hiding at home. well, i still can't help but search his fb once again. well, he has the time to update his status but not my message. so i guess it goes to show really how important i am to him. i have to stop deluding myself. i can delete his fb, his msn and his number.. but if he still stays in my head, all these would be done in vain. so theres no point. i really hope time can fast forward and bring me to the stage where i can laugh at myself for being so stupid. honestly, i feel so bloody stupid. like mad. gahhhh. i need to get a grip of my life! i need to! and today's POP really snapped me out of the blues alot. though i didn't get to see nei, which is my only regret.. but im really happy. really truly happy. i just couldn't stop grinning from ear to ear from even before it started. i was just filled with pride that my boys (i sound like a mum) have graduated after what seem like forever! So crazy!! im v happy for them!
also, im enjoying my new-found yet short-lived independence which my parents left me as they go off for their cruise.
i really really hope to snap out of this! gahhhh! okay. im going to add stuff to my blog. sigh.
P/S: i never ever ever forsee the day i'd seek inspiration from sheamson. of all people! LOL!
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