i don't know why but this has been the hot topic this week among my friends. Im not even the one thinking of it as i've been busy with school/work and suddenly, stuff happens and i realise that we keep discussing about this issue. Met up with ttengy today and we discussed about it also. and i don't know if fate/whoever is trying to illustrate my point, but today just felt like valentines day as i sat at starbucks in vivo trying to study and i see all kinds of couples. And a heavy flow of them as well. To be honest, i was completely unaffected. Hmm, yeah. I would love to hold a guy's strong hands. I would love to receive lovely flowers and what not. But its not necessary to me now. I have so many people around me whom i'd rather shower my love with than any guy just for the sake of not wanting to be single. Also, recently found out something about a close friend about her liking this guy whom i find rather disturbing and disgusted about. But you know, if she wants to get hitched so badly, i also can't stop her, can i? Honestly, how can anyone ever like a guy like that. Oh well. Who am i to judge? And besides, tbh, last night pubbing with reggie and being all dressed up, there was this fat caucasian sitting opposite and reggie said he kept looking my way. If i wanted to be cheap and just get a boyfriend, i guess i just needed to meet his gaze and give him a wink lor. Please. I don't need to stoop to that level. Really. I do admit i miss being flirted/sweet talked at and stuff.. But thats all. Like, i probably just need a part time somebody to fulfill these whenever im feeling it. Im not really looking for someone whom i need to sacrifice time with my friends/family for, only to realise he's toying with me. I don't really know if i ever wanna take the risk again and spend all my time/effort/love on one person again. Seeing and remembering the heartbreak process.. I am really rather frightened. Well, not say anyone would be interested to be in a functional relationship with me anyway. Also, the good ones are mostly taken. Lol. So yeah.
Anyway, have decided to start wearing contacts already. Im rather sick of my nerd specs look since i've had it since 2009? Lol. Fucking long la. Quite boringg. Shall try monthly contacts that are FUNCTIONAL rather than just making my eyeballs big. Made appt with paris miki for tmr to check my degree. Wooo. And also, as have learnt from michellephan, should start wearing sunglasses especially in singapore, to prevent wrinkles sia. Lol! Also, i feel atas doing that. Hahaha. Like grown up. Also, bought a white shirt today frm f21. Had to wear it immediately. Wooo!
Okay. Small changes. Anyway, eyes are really fucking small. And face/nose too big. Aiya, whatever lar. Also, because of work, i have given up dieting already. Its like, i'd rather make sure i have enough energy to stand for long hours and function properly than my figure. So, now since gonna be slacker, shall go back and be more weight conscious. Cannot stand the feeling of feeling ugly. Just like how i felt today. So did exercise bike for half an hour. Not enough, but at least its something.
Also, tf really made me v tempted to buy totes again! Gahhhhh. Wished i had more money! Oh well. Ok. Shall sleep. Mugging day tomorrow!
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