i know i'm supposed to be studying.. But suddenly.. It occurred to me that the most important things in your life.. The things you placed utmost confidence in, the things you have had the most confidence that won't fail.. Tend to be the things that are the most most vulnerable because of the value it has in your heart. Friendship, kinship, your dreams.. Though now irrelevant to me, and love.. They are the most beautiful things but beautiful things are always made of fragile material.. Which is what makes them special and highly valuable because you will treasure it as you want to prevent it from dropping on the floor/ getting scratched etc.. Because its your beloved. But no matter how hard you protect them.. There will be one day when you become tired of holding so tightly onto it.. U let loose. And its inevitable that it will be dropped on the floor. At this point, you have 2 options. Take a broom, sweep it up, throw the pieces away and get a new one.. Or piece them back together. for your friendship, kinship, love, dreams.. Depending on how much it matters to you.. Depending on its value, depending on how much difference it'll make in your life if you didn't have it in your life.. U make a decision. Throwing away is always the option with the least effort. But can you bear the idea of living without that good, old relationship? Then again, when you piece them back, the cracks are there. you have to once again hold on to it and you might become tired and it might be smashed again.. But you get to keep it back in your life again and because u felt the pain of losing it once, you will have a longer will to hold onto it with greater effort and better care. So which would you choose? And if you choose either, what makes you so sure you wouldn't regret either decision?
To me, in the past.. Any friendship IS an important relationship to me. So much so, i have to hold onto soo many fragile relationships.. I sometimes drop the ones that mean the most. So nowadays, i hold onto those that mean the most to me... But sometimes, even under proper surveillance, one will somehow fall through the cracks and break. Though it is sometimes tiring and requires alot of effort to piece them back.. I will piece them back. Even sometimes, the vase may not be whole again, i'll piece them back. Because life.. I suppose.. Is all about trying to find a good way to hold onto these important vases of relationships. Right? Without these vases.. What's the point of living with both your hands empty? There just doesn't seem to be much meaning to life.
yeah. Just random blogging diarrhea. But to the vase that slipped through.. i know i left the pieces lying there for a while without bothering to sweep it away or piece them back.. But i miss that vase. i know the above analogy is abit of an exaggeration.. But yeah. I miss holding onto one more vase. So i just hope that... The vase whos probably reading my blog.. Knows im trying to piece the pieces back together. Just that.. I am not very sure how to piece the friendship back together.
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